Sunday, December 29, 2013


Roads diverge in
Yellow woods
All the time…the
Is in the

And Frost was right
When he implied that
Would be equally pleasant.

Sometimes with roads
It’s not so much a
Matter of
But rather

Friday, December 20, 2013


Twice blessed
Thrice blessed
Empowered to inhabit the
Flip of my hair…the
Pale of my eyes…the
Curve of my skin.
Measuring life by the
Length of my arms and the
Strength of my thighs.
Emboldened by the
Swell of my lip…the
Trip of my tongue.
Immersed in the good,
Ready to run
To the new.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013


I cannot give you riches.
I cannot give you gold.
But I can give you a heart that is true,
And a love that will never
Grow cold.

Gifts are fragile and tricky things.
Best when selfless and
Without any strings.

But what if a gift is rejected?
Lonely and left behind?

The giver then has a choice to make.
Continue to give despite
Heartache and loss,
When gifts that are precious
End up treated as dross.

I cannot give you riches.
I cannot give you gold.
But I will give you a heart that is true,
And a love that will never
Grow cold.

Monday, December 16, 2013

This Hardship is Nothing

Battered, bruised, bloodied, but
Clinging to this lonely mountain not
Because I’ve given up, but
Rather to gather
Strength to start again.

I would walk the world for you.

I’ve walked until I could no longer stand, and
Now on my knees, I crawl.
Rough, rugged, craggy, lonely mountains will not keep me
From you.

My love is more than this mountain.
My heart’s hunger will not be denied.
I am battered, bruised, bloodied, but
I will find you.

Love lasts longer than this world only.

Thursday, December 12, 2013


Veer to the left.
Swing wide to the right.
I don't have the
Fight this fight.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Why I write Poetry

I started writing poetry a long time ago. 

My Grandmother (Margaret Reese) gave me a notebook she'd decorated to write my poetry in. She also gave me a rhyming dictionary. (This was for my birthday). I can't remember exactly what age I was, but I was between eight and ten. I loved it. I wrote AWFUL poetry, but I loved it nonetheless. As I got older, poetry became, for me, a voice I didn't feel I had. It was a way for me to express all of the feels I was overwhelmed with. I started getting good at it, and I liked it. I had poems published in school papers and purchased for publication. The more I wrote, the more I would find myself in what I called "writing moods"-- a mix of melancholy, moody broodiness that was palpably alleviated when I wrote out what I was feeling in free verse. I continued writing until a few years after I got married. After that, I still wrote a little bit, but it was, again, just awful. Oh well. Life goes in cycles.

Lately, I've been feeling the "writing mood" again. What you've read in the last week or so is the result of this. But I find that I'm giving myself small challenges as I write. In Outburst, I wanted to play around with alliteration (I've long loved the lilt of alliteration). I wanted to be a little bit daring in Desire, and Blurry was inspired by two distinctly different experiences. I'd had the phrase "There are no words for this wanting" tumbling about in my brain for some time; I paired it with my dear friend's terrible experience of losing her baby. I can't pretend I know what her experience is like or what she is feeling, but I do remember how I felt after I miscarried some twenty years ago. I chose the title "Blurry" because I'm a big believer in the idea that our Heavenly Father can clearly see the big picture of our lives, even when we can only see a blurry section of the finished product. Lastly, I wanted to write what I think of as a "Gotcha" poem in By the Numbers--where the reader thinks the poem is about one idea, but at the end realizes it's something completely different. Since a lot of the "two" part of the poem is lifted from my life with my husband, I can tell you he was a bit concerned by the time he got to the end of it! (I reassured him that everything was fine between us, and that he had nothing to worry about).

Which leads me to my final reasons for writing poetry: Poetry is powerful. It changes you. I taught a poetry unit to my ELD class while student teaching last spring. We did formula poems--things like "Just Because" and "Where I'm From" and I wanted them to get the idea that poetry could be a voice for them to say things that they wouldn't ordinarily feel comfortable saying. It became an experience that is hard to describe. When I started the unit, NONE of the students wanted to write poetry. As I wrapped up the unit, EVERY student begged me to continue--they wanted to write poetry more than they wanted to do anything else in their English language development. I think that in a small way, it changed their lives. I was glad, because I understood--writing poetry definitely changed my life.

In my own poems, I choose each word carefully, wanting to say as much as I possible can with only a few words. It is my hope that what I write strikes a chord in my readers, and maybe helps them process their grief, or helps them find their own voice to say what they need. To help you find a palpable relief that someone understands what you are feeling.

And maybe you'll be inspired to write some of your own poetry. (Even if it's awful). 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

By the Numbers

Two is amazing.
Two is hand-holding
Glances, looks,
Sighs full of want--
Heavy with meaning, and the 
Buzz of mutual attraction. 
Two is
Public displays of affection that
Catch you unawares and
Take your breath away. 
Two is heat.
Inside jokes,
Wit and wonder. 
Two is always moving 
A little bit closer
Always touching however Two can. 
Two is so big
That the world, the Universe
Shrinks (and yet expands) to
Just one person. 
Two is everything. 
And I am not the
One that you want. 

Friday, November 22, 2013


There are no words for this wanting.

Loss (Longing).

Bereft (Alone).
Miracle Mothers
First-time Fathers
A sudden shift to
Empty arms (Empty Spaces).
Holes (Wounds, really).
Hands with nothing to hold.

There are no words for this wanting.

Monday, November 18, 2013


Lightning travels
When you touch me
My perimeter aglow with
St. Elmo’s fire
I crackle and snap
Thrumming and tingling
Barometric pressure within rises
Pheromones soak me to my skin
Cloud to cloud lightning strike
Maelstrom unleashed

Saturday, November 16, 2013


Words are
Shimmering, simmering, glimmering
On the tip of my tongue.
Burbling bubbles 
Ready to burst upon the blue.

Some words 
Spoken too soon 
Are sour; simmering
Makes them sweeter.
I swallow.